HELLO.
Do you listen to yourself
Never live for someone else
Do you like the way you feel
Nothing hurts when no one's real
She wants to shake this scene
Yeah she wants to shake with me
She's not looking for the holes in all the lies
I won't let you fall until you let it go
HERO.
of the muddle-headed one.
{anisiah
shazlin.
definition; (: boisterous, athletic, fun and teenspirit-ed.
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twelve-
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teen soon.
100794
POET.
BALESTIER ; CEDAR.
ONE/CEE 07'
greenhouse effect; GARDENIA!
track&field team
soccer.
CHOCOLATE(:
silver&black&white&red&purple&green
guitarists
are sexiest.
taken. i
loveyou.
i'm a tragic affair.
Daylight burns your sleepy eyes
It's hard to see you dreaming
You hide inside yourself
I wondered what you're thinking
And everything you're chasing
It seems to leave you empty.
ART.
Sunday, August 27, 2006, 9:41 AM
heyy!omg, WOMAD on saturday was so damn fun! me, kim and jerrica were dancing so much! haha! i loved it at the WOMAD. i want to go next year too. XD i wonder who'll go with me if i pay for my own ticket?anyway, today's headlines on the "ShazlinBroadcast" is Arrian Jacked and Ditched. muahahaha. the dirty work's been done. of course, i took the brainy work of me and my BEST friend, kimberly! lol. here's how the whole thing goes. arriand found out abt kim's BGR with daniel. btw, a BGR is a boyfriend girlfriend relationship. anyway, did i forget to mention that DANIEL is arrian's EX? well now that i've mentioned that, who cares. secret's out and nobody cares abt arrian. she sucks to the core! anyway, she scolded kim abt tt and, d-oh, i got angry. so i went online and scolded her a "fucking bitch" and an "asshole". LOL. but that's not all. after i told her that we never cared for her company, she BEGGED ME to be her friend? HOW PATHETIC IS THAT? she claimed tt she cried and that her mother was comforting her but who am i to believe such things from a bloody liar? anyway, she's still totally been jacked by moi, yours truly, anisiah shazlin. and i'm never taking it back. instead, i'm going to plan to sabo her more? anyone who has anything against arrian, please join me and kimberly in our attempt to make her life a living hell. after all, SHE DID TREAT US LIKE FREAKING SLAVES! ok, whatever abt her alr.next things next. abt my marks. omg. i'm so friggin happy! last time, i got 63 for maths but now i got 81! omg. 81! english i got 86/95. malay i got 74/100. one more mark and i would've gotten A. if only i'd put in the extra effort! DX i haven't gotten my science marks yet. i CAN wait. it's going to be horrid. the paper was difficult, OKAY!? dont come and tease me for no reason. sigh. what's everybody wearing to sch on be yourself day? poor kim, she has to go to the dentist for smth to do with her braces on that day, IN THE MORNING. she won't be in sch, SOB! i'll be alone, no best firned there to be with moi. nvm. i've still got diana, yan yi and even sharmeel. not to mention my next best frien, su su naing.i have to go. my brother's using the computer. see every body around! <3>
[[aNiisiiah]]
Thursday, August 24, 2006, 12:46 AM
heyy~
so. today. PRELIMS ARE OVER! finally. it seemed to go on forever. i'm going to die for science, it was tough. that's actually the first time i have ever said that! anyway, lets look on the positive side! i'm going to WOMAD with kimberly and jerrica! wheee~ hahas. i dont care abt being on a stupid singapore idol music video. like, whatever! i cant wait for WOMAD!
btw, have i mentioned that i think the guys from life as we know it rawk? they look so cute, hot, etc!
btw, have i mentioned that i have nth to write? ah! i guess i'll write when i do have smth to write. kay. bye!
love all my friends forever!
[[aNiisiiah]]
Monday, August 21, 2006, 2:30 AM
hellox~
sorry i havent updated until today. busy preparing for prelims and PSLE ORAL EXAMINATION. omg. so scary. as in malay. english WAS CAKE. MALAY WAS TORTURE AND HELL BOUND RESULTS. one of the two teachers raised her voice at me.yikes. but aiman said tt he heard the other teacher saying "bagus la.." which means, in direct translation, "good la..." lol. i hope i get OK marks if not i die. die die die.
today everything so broing. today eng prelims mah. damn boring lor. everything revise revise revise. maths extra class also damn f'ing boring. lmao the whole time cause chatting with my friends.lol. after sch also stay back. watch boys play soccer and run around. fun. haha. then go home. so here i am. this is more boring than any other of my boring like hell days. i'm sleepy too. i got a new cute diary thing. it's digital but it's cute anyway! haha. got it yesterday. XD so kawaii i tell you! hahas. lucky no hw today liao.
anyway, i wrote this on my MSN personal msg, "i <3>
i don't know why my entry today seems so weird. i've lost touch in my blog writing skills i guess. haha. anyway, tag me! lol. ok. i better blog more later. my friends are getting angry at me for not replying immediately. bb!
[[aNiisiiah]]
Sunday, August 13, 2006, 2:09 PM
heyy,
everybody, i'm very angry today! argh! it's because of my stupid grandmother. she come over to our house and complains abt us to our father when we DON'T welcome her here. she's such an annoying freak. i HATE HER. but sometimes, of course, i love her as she is part of my family. but... but... i wish she would just stop picking on me and making me do everything when i need to prepare for my PSLE. my brother and sister exist too. but... but she does not ask them to do anything. it's like i am a fucking slave! I AM NOT. AM NOT AM NOT AM NOT.
btw, PSLE oral is this thursday and friday! omg! i'm so freaked out, especially for malay oral. eeeeeeee. must take it seriously liao. enough of tt because i don't want to freak myself out. sigh... i've ot another song for everybody! wheee. another of my favourites! UNFAITHFUL BY RIHANNA. I LOVE THIS SONG!
"Unfaithful"
Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company
He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true
And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer
I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well
Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer
Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore
Uh
Anymore (anymore)
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
And everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
And I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer (a murderer)
No no no no
Yeah yeah yeah
yup, tt's all i'm typing for today. XD bb!
love all my friends forever!
[[aNiisiiah]]
Saturday, August 12, 2006, 1:30 PM
hellox~
i'm NOT going to complain today, don't worry! haha. today, i haven't done much. i just went down in the morning and ate bread. BORING! now it's okay la... talking to different people etc. i can't believe that the prelim listening is on monday! aiyee. i'm not scared. haha. eee, i got nth to write abt. sigh. mine as well just write another poem! XD
"my cherished friend"
when i look around
and try to spot a cherished friend
i seldom see her there
she's always somewhere else
if someone's took her away
somewhere i dare not go to
i'll feel rather blue
but when i see her round the corner,
i feel happy that i'm not a goner
she's my cherished friend forever and ever.
ta daa! i did that in like, five minutes. you should try too... hahas. kayys. i am going to eat my lunch. see you around!
love my friends forever!~
[[aNiisiiah]]
Friday, August 11, 2006, 6:37 AM
heyys,
sooo, what's everybody up to without me? say. say say say. btw, "mahal kita, kaibiganko"! it means " i love you, my friends" in fillipino. wheee! haha. kayys. i'm weird, you needn't tell me. its in the blood. my sis is weird and crazy like me too XD haha... talking to peeranut and adilah now. adilah's cat is so cute and peeranut and i are talking abt soccer! =) rofl. i'm a soccer fan! yippee. haha. ok. time to get serious. i'm going to talk abt how my life at sch is! tee hee. dunno why i'm giggling!
kayys. here goes...
the average day in my life is what i usually blog abt. i nv blog abt the special days because they are prob too secretive or i don't want anyone to know abt it. especially if i'm keeping smth from someone. i definitely won't write it down and show the whole world! who in their right mind would?
i am very understanding abt everything. if someone wants $20 as a present, i will give it to the person eventually, even if it takes weeks and even if i don't know the person tt well. it's frustrating but i can sacrifice whatever to see someone else happy. especially kimberly. she's my best friend. i don't like it when she cries. she can make me cry too. i will sacrifice my time to listen to her. i really would. she too would sacrifice her time to listen to me but not as much. nowadays, nobody even bothers abt me. they don't listen. THEY TAKE ME FOR GRANTED. sometimes i wonder whether i should be selfish with my precious time. i want ppl to like me as a friend and maybe i'm overdoing it. i dont' want anybody to hate me but being generous and nice won't work. sigh. anyone out there, just listen to what little matters i have to say. and help me. i need help. solve the problem for me. i have so many problems but nobody knows it. everybody thinks i am rich but i am not. I AM NOT RICH. STOP ASKING ME FOR CASH I DON'T HAVE. PLEASE.
sigh... ok... i've got nothing else to COMPLAIN ABT. KAYYS. i better be going then. bye peeps! luv ya even if i don't know ya well!
love all my friends forever!
[[aNiisiiah]]
Wednesday, August 09, 2006, 8:47 AM
heyys everybody!
today's sgpore's bday. happy bday sgpore!! XD hahas. kayys. i'm st a lan shop with my brother now. we're not going home and we're staying up till tmr. i hope i don't get too tired and sleepy to do my hmwrk! ahhh. today was okay. my grandmother came over with my cuz and auntie to watch the national day parade there cause you can see the fire works clearly from my house. she started scolding me abt not coming home and sleeping at my friends house the day before after going to sgpore idol. they had to film the show the day before cause national day's today so they can't possibly film it today. they filmed it yesterday. i'm not going to tell you how they sang. if you wanna know, watch it yourself on channel 5 or get aquainted with an idol and get free tickets or smth.
i got really pissed with my grandmother so i just went to sleep after my sis came back. i told her evrything and she was like, "don't worry abt that lady..." i cheered uo and all but half way through my sleep, my bro woke me up, asking stupid questions. rofl... at around 7, i woke up because of my dad and went to catch a lil' bit of the parade on tv. at around 7.30, me, my sis and my bro went to go see my mum. it's been a long time since we've seen her. i was so happy. she picked us up in a taxi. we went to eat at newton circus. ate sting ray and baby kailan. :) love the food there. yum! after eating at newton circus, we went to watch CLICK AGAIN. LIKE WHAT THE HECK! it's because my bro hasn't watched it yet so we're forced to watch it. sigh. i didn't laugh much but i cried alot even though it was the second time. rofl.
there you go. and now i'm here, in a NEW lan shop near netzspiel. netzspiel is still a hotspot though. i'm with my bro only cause my sis decided to go home and use the com there instead. me and my bro walked all the way from shaw house to this place which is on the other side of town at prinsep! ahhhh. so far. my bro kept bumping into all his friends and was embarrassed cause i'm wearing a green t-shirt with a pic of chip and dale on it! hahas. they're so cute ok! don't laugh.
kayys. i guess i'll go play dota or d2 now. my hands are numb because of the cold. need smth to warm me up! see you guys around!
love all my friends forever!
[[aNiisiiah]]
Tuesday, August 08, 2006, 1:18 AM
heyys.
i'm back! XD
i don't get why kimberly is so mean to me when we're in groups but when we're alone she's so nice. on the phone and online she's ok. the problem is when we're with people. she acts differently towards me, as if i were her enemy or smth. sigh. will someone solve my problems? i've always solved other peoples problems and put them back on their feet but i myself can't get up and help myself to face reality! it like it's just me against the cold, dark world. i always feel so lonely because my friends are so cold hearted and ignorant. i'm like a piece of dirt to them, no more important then their boyfriends wheni've always been ther for them. i feel like giving up on life but my candle of hope hasn't burnt out yet. i still have my family and some other people to care for and to take care of. i'm feeling so depressed today. i'm such an emo shit. I DON'T SLIT MY WRISTS, OK! i do not so don't think that just because i'm emo, i do that. i don't. by the way, i wrote a poem for y'all. here goes!
"Guardian Angel"
i don't understand this at all
you're supposed to be there for me when i fall
but when i'm on my knees crying
you're never there for me
i wish that someone would be a great friend
and that all my troubles would finally end
but i know its useless to keep on wishing
i need to do something before it's too late
i want someone to be there for me when i'm feeling down
but most of my friends just let me down
only one or two are there for me
but did i ever say they were nice to me?
i solve peoples problems day and night
and i get nothing in return
i never complain and start a fight
cause i'm scared that my friendships will burn
i occupy myself each day
by day dreaming of my favourite guy
so i won't slit my wrists like you
so please, i beg
just please, please let
let me find my guardian angel
i'll be happier then
i'll be laughing even more then
so will someone show up and be my guardian angel
i do not know
but all i can do is keep the candle of hope lighted
and wait for my precious guardian angel to be sighted...
that's the end of my precious poem! now for the song SOS by Rihanna! i know y'all have been eagerly awaiting this moment so i'll give it to you.
"S.O.S. (Rescue Me)"
[Intro]
Lalala lalala la la lala la
Ohhh
You know...
I never felt like this before
Lalala lalala la la lala la
Ohhh
Feels like.. so real
[Verse 1]
I'm obsessive when just one thought of you comes up
And I'm aggressive just one thought of close enough
You got me stressing, incessantly pressing the issue
'Cause every moment gone you know I miss you
I'm the question and you're of course the answer
Just hold me close boy 'cause I'm your tiny dancer
You make me shaken up, never mistaken
But I can't control myself, got me calling out for help
[Chorus:]
S.O.S. please someone help me.
It's not healthy... for me to feel this way
Y.O.U. are making this hard,I can't take it, see it don't feel right
S.O.S. please someone help me
It's not healthy... for me to feel this way
Y.O.U. are making this hard
You got me tossin' and turnin' and can't sleep at night
[Bridge:]
This time please someone come and rescue me
'Cause you on my mind it's got me losing it
I'm lost, you got me lookin' for the rest of me
Love is testing me but still I'm losing it
This time please someone come and rescue me
'Cause you on my mind, it's got me losing it
I'm lost, you got me looking for the rest of me,
Got the best of me, so now I'm losing it
[Verse 2]
Just your presence and I second guess my sanity
Yes it's a lesson, it's unfair, you stole my vanity
My tummy's up in knots so when I see you I get so hot
My common sense is out the door, can't seem to find the lock
Take on me (uh huh) you know inside you feel it right
[CD version:]
Take me on I'm put desire up in your arms tonight
[Video version:] Take me on, I could just die up in your arms tonight.
I'm out with you, you got me head over heels
Boy you keep me hanging on the way you make me feel
[Chorus:]
S.O.S. please someone help me.
It's not healthy... for me to feel this way
Y.O.U. are making (Y.O.U.) this hard,
You got me tossin' and turnin' and can't sleep at night
[Bridge:]This time please someone come and rescue me
'Cause you on my mind, it's got me losing it ('Cause you on my mind)
I'm lost, you got me lookin' for the rest of me
Love is testing me but still I'm losing it
This time please someone come and rescue me (someone come and rescue me)
'Cause you on my mind got me losing it
I'm lost, you got me looking for the rest of me,
Got the best of me, so now I'm losing it
Boy, you know you got me feeling open
And boy, your loves enough with words unspoken
I said boy I'm telling you, you got me open
I don't know what to do it's true
I'm going crazy over you,
I'm begging
[Chorus:]
S.O.S. please somebody help me.
It's not healthy... for me to feel this way
Y.O.U. are making this hard (are you making this hard for me, baby?),
You got me tossin' and turnin' and can't sleep at night
[Bridge:]
This time please someone come and rescue me (someone rescue me)
'Cause you on my mind, it's got me losing it
I'm lost, you got me lookin' for the rest of me
Love is testing me but still I'm losing it
This time please someone come and rescue me
'Cause you on my mind got me losing it ('cause any time)
I'm lost you, got me looking for the rest of me,
Got the best of me (best of me),
I'm losing it
[Outro]
Lala lala lala lala
Ohhh
Ohh ohh lala lala lala lala
Oh oh
ok! that's the end of my entry. i feel a little happier but still depressed. hope you guys enjoy the song and my poem, rofl. go download the song if you're an r&b fan! it rawks! hahas. kays. i'll talk to everyone again soon! for now i'll prob try to talk to *ahem*! hahas. kays. bye bye!
love all my friends forever...
[[aNiisiiah]]
, 12:00 AM
heyys.
i just got back from sch. sch actually ended at 10.30 but i went to shaw plaza with kimberly, arrian, annie and ericia. the main point was actually to watch a movie but in the end we decided just to eat at KFC and have fun. we started running around like idiots after that! hahas. we met liang yin, alvin and hafiz after that and laughed alot. the sad thing is after that, hafiz, arrian, kimberly and annie left so i was left with liang yin and alvin. the shorties! not to mention ericia. but she kinda went some where after that because mr ho saw her and i dunno where she went. so yep. i was left with alvin and liang yin. can you believe that? a sicko and a meanie. alvin's the sicko though. hahas. and you know what? they followed me to my house! argh. they saw the insides. liang yin sat on my couch and alvin stood on my carpet with their shoes on! omg. do you know how bad that is. evil i tell you. evil! argh. so after they left, i was so relieved. and now here i am, writing this entry and listening to music. i'm kiond of getting bored because nobody is talking to me on msn. haix. wish someone would call me or chat with me. i'm really bored! ok, i'm going to add more lyrics to my blog!
one of my favourite songs is SOS by Rihanna! wheeee! i'll put it up later in another ebtry but for now i'll just go off first. maybe i'll even put it up tmr. it really depends! hahas.
kays, i gtg. you know me.. i don't like staying online and typing CRAP. so i'll add another entry later when i have smth to write abt but i promise to post the lyrics of SOS by today. yuppies...
see y'all later! love all mii friends!
[[aNiisiiah]]
Monday, August 07, 2006, 4:59 AM
heyys.
gosh. this is the second time i'm writing today and that's cause i've got more stuff to say! hahas. kays. here i go!
well, you've obviously noticed that i've changed my blog skin AGAIN. hahas. and you know why? it's because the old one wasn't me. this one's not me either but i'm satisfied cause it rawks! its all pink and stuff but what the heck. do i look like i care if it's pink? NO. so don't pester me abt it. i just like all that butterfly stuff they've done to it. it is totally awesome. i like butterflies. you can't change that fact. don't ask me abt it! moving on... ok. who has watched Click? it was damn sad at the ending but funny throughout! love it. you absolutely have to catch it! now, i wanna watch the fast and furious tokyo drift. kimberly's parent's says that it rawks ti the core. i'm so glad that i'm able to watch it cause its PG. yay! besides that, i also want to mention how mean annie is! she said the kids from my class stank. ok. maybe the indians but omg, me? i'm probably more hygienic than her. i'm definitely more hygienic than arrian! she's disgusting. ew. she picks up food that has dropped on the FLOOR and eats it! yucks! do you know how gross that is?
kay. i'm talking to hian yong now. i'll write another entry tmr. busy now. LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS ALWAYS!!!
[[aNiisiiah]]
, 2:42 AM
hi,
kays. today was the most boring day i've had in months. firstly, i get up so early in the morning for no reason cause i don't care about morning focus groups. i guess i was trying to be a good girl but my friends and i always say that good girls are actually just bad girls who don't get exposed and i know that i am a bad girl so it's no point hiding all tt. i want to be me not some stupid goody two shoes who's a teacher's pet like some of my friends at sch. they are such boring and lame people.
after the focus group, we stood outside and took the pledge and etc. but today was different cause i made fun of the song! haha. i'm so mean XD the worst bit is that i'm a singaporean! hahas.
after that, went back up to class for a day of the most boring lessons in my whole entire life. maybe not but it seemed like it. i had an argument with my team again because thay were all like, "you must do this, you must do that." i know what i have to do and i know whether I WANT TO DO IT OR NOT. like D-OH. i'm NOT STUPID. i can do things for myself for gawds sake. stop bossing me around when I AM CAPTAIN. GAWD. i can't stand them and neither can su su naing so we just walked off. XP then later we got scolded by miss tan cause she said smth abt no team effort/teamwork. me an su su naing were like, "WHATEVER, YA YA. LIKE WE CARE!" but not out loud, in our heads.
after sch, we went for supplementary classes. borinmg, as usual. after supp also boring. you see what i mean? usually i'd be playing soccer with the boys but today, NO. why? because of miss tan la!!!!! i'm so angry. i was. now i've cooled down and i'm in a good mood.
right now, i'm helping yan yi solve her love problems. i just solved everything! haha. i'm such a love genius! XD any problems? please consult mii! haha. anyways, i've got nth else to write. oh, i know!
ok. i love the song The Quiet Things That Noone Ever Knows so much. so, today, i'm going to dedicate the lyrics to all the couples!
"The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows"
We saw the western coast
I saw the hospital
Nursed the shoreline like a wound
Reports of lover's tryst
Were neither clear nor descript
We kept it safe and slow
The quiet things that no one ever knows
[Chorus: x2]
So keep the blood in your head
And keep your feet on the ground
If today's the day it gets tired
Today's the day we drop out
Gave up my body and bed
All for an empty hotel
Wasting words on lower cases and capitals
I contemplate the day we wed
Your friends are boring me to death
Your veil is ruined in the rain
By then it's you I can do without
There's nothing new to talk about
And though our kids are blessed
Their parents let them shoulder all the blame
[Chorus: x2]
So keep the blood in your head
And keep your feet on the ground
If today's the day it gets tired
Today's the day we drop out
Gave up my body and bed
All for an empty hotel
Wasting words on lower cases and capitals
[Bridge: x2]
I lie for only you
And I lie well...
Hallelu...
[Chorus: x2 (words from bridge continued in the background)]
So keep the blood in your head
And keep your feet on the ground
Today's the day it gets tired
Today's the day we drop out
Gave up my body and bed
All for an empty hotel
Wasting words on lower cases and capitals
ta daaaa! there you go. the lyrics to one of my favourite songs ever! kays. i gtg. bye darls!
XOXOXO aNisiah
Saturday, August 05, 2006, 4:59 AM
heys. i've got not much time left of mii usage time to write a long entry so don't mind me being selfish with mii words!
today, i told mii friend, diana to stop biting her nails and guess what? she said that she'll try. but she'd my "neice". there's this god-sis, god-bro thing going on in my sch and to think of it, she's mii neice! hahax. oops, time's run out. gtg. love y'all, bye!
[[aNisiah]] rawks your world...
