HELLO.
Do you listen to yourself
Never live for someone else
Do you like the way you feel
Nothing hurts when no one's real
She wants to shake this scene
Yeah she wants to shake with me
She's not looking for the holes in all the lies
I won't let you fall until you let it go
ART.
Tuesday, January 30, 2007, 2:31 PM
hi.
hmms. in sch com lab now. erms. (: the com lab's open after sch everyday, yay!!!
lol-ies.
my leg hurts badly. it's so pain. T.T i can't believe i fell down during jogging. i tripped over this metal thingy i didn't see. DIAO. hee. i hate jogging period. two rounds around the entire ginormous school. BLECH. training's tough. very tough. wonder how i'm going to train tmr with my leg... sigh.
OMG. i thought tt was a teacher. i was abt to close the window. DIAO. i'm in love with "DIAO"s. (: lalala.
i miss bhps kids!!! okay, not kids, FRIENDS. lol. so sian without you guys. T.T SIAN SIAN SIAN.
hee. there's this damn pretty girl in jumps in T&F. Elisha, i think. she is DAMN pretty. but i'm NOT in love with her, KAYS?! crazy michelle got the wrong idea. blahs.
i got my phone back! but different number. ask jw or smth if you want my number. OR KIM. ya. i miss kim!!! i miss diana. i miss jin wen. i miss yan yi. i miss wilson. i miss ying ying. AIYA, MISS SO MANY PPL too lazy to list. plus, i alr said this abt a hundred time alr. (my entries don't even reach hundreds yet.) OMG. my english is horrible. i write so many "la" and "diao". and "aiya". AIYA! lame. i'm so hyper today. i dunno' why. hmms. i think it's because of the CNY auditions. me and my friends were screaming the newly written 1C version of He Xin Nian. I THINK tt's how you spell it, la. i repeat, i think.
'WHY IS BARBIE SO POPULAR WHEN WE HAVE TO BUY HER FRIENDS?'
hmms. why? it's true. if BARBIE was so popular, her "friends" tt lil' kids buy would come in one whole set. omfg. tt'll cost hundreds. she has approximately close to 100 "minions", i think! so ex'. LMFAO. this is so lame. got nth to type..! heh. :D
sorry i haven't re-linked alot of ppl. i have not been able to go online as much. uber sorry! ):
i miss wilson. ALOT. is your hp working? hehs. :D
ppl from bhss who come to tag my tagboard, how do you know me?? i only know suriyana and tt was less than 3 minutes worth of talking. if Andi disturbs you, TELL ME. i'll scold him for you. ^ ^ hee. he's SUPPOSEDLY my kor. you know what i mean, right?
he's still fat after 2 months. GEEZ. he used to be in my malay class. hehs. he LOVES to disturb girls and can be unbearable and disgusting at times. :P bear with him! he's actually quite nice. don't be surprised i know almost half your class, 1E3!!! hahas.
CNY eve anybody going back to bhps? i don't want to go and then nobody turn up. so out of place. hmms. please come!!! i don't care if you are at bhss or a sch in toa payoh and don't want to go. MUST COME...! lol, sounds too much like a threat. (:
it's 2:30 alr, i gtg. will blog again soon.
FOB infinity on high ROCKS MY SOCKS!
anisiahloveschocolate.retrotoo. (:
hearts.
Sunday, January 28, 2007, 3:26 AM
i will blog soon. sorry for not being online for so long. my com's spoilt.
WIL, I MISS YOU!
ask jw for my house number, if you want.
tag me for your re-links.
Tuesday, January 23, 2007, 9:12 PM
heys.i'm at my sch com lab npw. i have PSGM after this so i have to rush through this entry. D-OH. rofl. i'm such a dorky person nowadays.i miss everybody. THOSE PPL FROM BHSS WHO VISIT MY BLOG, please leave a tag for your blog addy to so i can add you guys. make new friends. (: i feel like a bloody P1 kid again. "DIAO". anyways,i miss everybody to bits. sob. erms.OHH. why does nini have to be so mean to kim? hmms. it's not my prob so i shall not further comment. it'll only get me in trouble. LOLs. OOPS.gtg. will blog soon.byes.
Monday, January 22, 2007, 7:17 PM
hello~!I AM SO SO SORRY. tt i haven't been online, haven't checked my mail, haven't blogged and haven't contacted much people until today. i've been super busy. school has swallowed up my almost perfect social life. screw tt. i haven't even talked to anyone much besides jing wen for ONE FREAKING LONG WEEK. more than tt. i miss everybody.the person i miss most is, guess who...? it's damn easy to guess. ahh, forget the guessing. IT'S SO SUPER OBVIOUS. tsk tsk. if you don't know, you are mentally deranged. WIL, I MISS YOU ALOT ALOT ALOT.i think you got the letter. hahas. (: sorry if your class made a fuss or anything. am i forgiven? <3>
yan yi. I HAVE NO IDEA if you like my christmas present or not. ABSOLUTELY NO CLUE. please, please contact me. it's been so long since we talked. BLAH.
ONE. i am sleep deprived. which is horrible. i could barely keep awake during Geography.
TWO. i am chocolate deprived. I NEED CHOCOLATE! it's like a food supplement. lol.
THREE. i need my friends. primary school friends. SOB.
anyways (:
i have to go.
IN YOUR FACE AND OUT OF PLACE.
anisiahloveschocolatesodoyou.
Sunday, January 14, 2007, 11:34 AM
hello!
may i request tt yan yi STOP changing her blog adress...? i haven't changed mine since early last year! geez. i might change mine today though. :D but i don't know what to put as the addy.
MOVING ON.
today, while i was reading annie's blog, guess what i found? yes, it's the latest entry.
life's unfair and unpredictable... i choose not to elaborate.i'm just going to say i'm shocked.
heh. i guess i'm off. will blog soon again.
trademark anisiah-ness.
Saturday, January 13, 2007, 3:05 PM
hello!
today was UBER fun! INDUCTION DAY ROCKED. it's going under my "good memories" sector. haha. erms. anyway, i came late for induction cause i wasn't feeling too well. apparently, i felt much better half an hour later. geez. i went for induction. when we entered the MPH, i was so friggin' happy. i had this sense of pride thingy going on. i just felt like squealing. too bad for me, my dad wasn't there so he wouldn't have felt what i felt. i'm actually really excited abt it all. the prospect of what's ahead got me going. we stood for ages until the last class, sec 1S, came in. they walk so slowly! geez. my back hurt from standing for too long. haha. the presentation began, blah blah. mrs oyang presented her speech.so did the head prefect and the representatives from the 9 classes and VASHA presented her speech too. she's really nice. ohh. the diff classes had to talk abt our class emblem. i have no idea how you spell it but, ya. we had to recite our class cheer/pledge too! we were so soft. barely audible..
after tt was the badge presentation which was quite quick. then IT WAS THE PERFORMANCES. yay-ness. first was the band. they played three pieces which were okay. not too bad. they were really gd though. then was handbell ensemble. the small bells were so cute! hahaha. then, the choir sang this really motivating and nice song! haha. i can see why they need loadsa' ppl for choir. they're so gd! after choir was the dance performance! it totally rocked. the song they remixed was effing cool. :D they dance so well. it was like mini-beyonces on stage dancing. i say it was the best performance of all. i wonder whether they video recorded it... hmmm. maybe. the seniors sang a song for us too! it was quite funny. lol.
after tt, we cheered Cedar Revolution and stuff like tt and we TOOK OUR CLASS PHOTOS! we're going to have alot of class photo's. we alr have 2 so far. and more photos of me and my friends la. yay-ness! hahaha.
and guess what?! our pupil leaders told us more ghost stories abt the sch! on firday, mrs franklin told us one story, too.
story #1: as told by mrs franklin. :D
a few years ago, there was this girl who was training at sch for track and field. she was sickso i think the coach asked her to go and rest. she rested near the gym area and after awhile,she went to the toilet at the water coolers tt we ALWAYS drink from. we don't dare drink from there anymore alr. haha. she went inside, blah blah. when she was washing her hands, she felt smth behind her so she turned around and saw this hideous, extremely ugly old lady.she screamed and fainted. frozen stiff, seriously. her friends heard her scream so they went to check on her in the toilet. when they saw her, one of them went to call a teacher. at tt time, my form teacher, mrs franklin, was at the staff room so she went to check on her and stuff. they tried to wake her up but she only came around after a few minutes later. and she told my teacher and her friends what happened. her parents said tt she was able to see ghosts. when we heard the story, we got freaked out and didn't want to go to tt particular toilet anymore. haha. :D it happened again too. but it happened at the toilet across my classroom block. and we always go there! so we go to the one near the canteen instead. LOL.
story #2: as told by sarah (pupil leader) :D
erm. there was this girl who was in red cross, i think. i'm not so sure how this stroy goes. correct me if i'm wrong!smth happened to her near the red cross area AT THE watchtower. IT IS DIRECTLY ABOVE THE FOYER. every two years, somehow, the flag raisers will end up raising the sch flag higher than the singapore flag. when tt happens, some ppl will be able to see the girl jump from the watchtower to the courtyard and there WILL be a pool of blood where she lands. and yes, it freaked us out. not because of the girl. BUT BECAUSE MEAN-IE YING TZE(pupil leader) SCREAMED SUDDENLY. lol.
story #3: as told by amirah (pupil leader)
erms. this group of girls were playing the "spirit" game outside one of the sec 1 classrooms (what if it's mine?!) when one of the girls got possessed by a MAN spirit. the parents found out and sent the girl to many priests and exorcists in Sg but they couldn't get the spirit out from her body. so last time, everyday at sch, the girl would "touch" herself (me: EW!) because the man spirit forces her too. i don't think she's aware of it though.
there's some more but i refuse to blog abt them. there's a long "history" to our sch man. 50 years of all this creepy stuf.. ugh. *bites lip*
lalala, interesting entry? :D haha. it's abit lame, la. but i'm bored and need smth to do. heh.
anyways. :D
i'm going to do smth else. will blog soon!
miss my pri sch friends alot. *hugs* heh.
give it up for 1C! trademark anisiah-ness. :D
Thursday, January 11, 2007, 8:21 PM
okay.
today, i'm not happy.
firstly,the reason why i changed back my skin is because i didn't really like the other skin anymore. i love this one. secondly, induction ceremony rehearsal SUCKED. i hated it so much. we had to stand super still and not breathe a word. like wtf. dont be so harsh on us...!
anw.
I DID NOT COPY ANNIE. i totally forgot. if we aregrowing distant and you want to tell me off, say it straight, guys! i really did not copy annie. AND IF YOU WANT ME TO CHANGE IT, FINE. i will. smth original. I AM NO POSEUR.
michelle and i laughed alot today because of shandeep, atiqah, dhivya and ariel. hilarious.
i realise smth. i've been blogging less and less abt my pri sch friends and i guess it's kinda' bad of me since i promised not to lose contact and all. i'd say tt it's very difficult for me since we're all in diff schools but i can't use tt as an excuse since when i get home,i can go online and chat or call you guys up. sorry. i feel like i don't know you guys anymore. what some of you said abt me falling apart is true. i am growing distant. i'm highly influenced by my new friends so i'm sorry. i guess it's just an act to fit in. everybody does tt but itlooks like i'm in desperate need of it. NOONE except adel and joypriya is in cedar so i feel kinda' lonely and upset smtimes tt i know i have to make an effort to fit in.if i've made you upset too, i'm really sorry. i don't know how many times i'll apologize but, ya.
anw.
if you guys find my blog boring, you could be more lenient abt it. i haven't had as much time as everybody else to blog, you know? it's tough smtimes. instead of blogging everyday like i usually do, i'm blogging less and less. but truthfully, somedays i really have a boring day at sch so you can't blame me for writing lame stuff. and i don't blog much abt you guys (pri sch friends) either. sorry.
tmr i really have no idea how many ppl are going back to bhps cause everybody cancels at the last minute. i hate tt fact. ihope my besties come, at least. i need to catch up on what i've missed-alot. i'm no longer close to you guys.i even feel non-existent to you guys anymore. wish i kept more in contact from the first day of sch. it was my mistake. and it's not like i have anyone arnd me nowadays. i don't go out. i just go home, do hmwork and sleep. not much of a life, ehh? you'd hate my life if you were me. it's so quiet now. it used to be bustling with activities and stuff but not anymore. getting used to sec sch life is tough, i guess. some of you are lucky cause' you have each other at sch. i regret going to cedar, sometimes. at others, i'm really happy. i have absolutely no idea why.
i was so happy to see kim and annie ystd evening! yay, you guys came over! well, not into my house, ya. we ate "polvorons". it's a filipina snack. we all prefered the chocolate one. i hadn't tried tt one before and i guess it's really yummy! haha. after tt, we went to the playground near JW's house and sat there. KIM TOOK MY SLIPPERS AND THREW THEM ARND. T.T hee. but got her sch shoes as well. basically, it was just chasing each other for our shoes/slippers. LOL. they had to go home after tt which was sad. cause i miss them alot. i guess they've changed like me too cause we all act differently. i guess i've becomemore nredy. it's cedar's fault. they made me nerdy (: haha. but you guys aren'taslight bit nerdy. like look at me! high socks, tucked in shirt, wear tie always, no fringe allowed, long skirt. of course i've been turned into a nerd on the outside. i'm still the same on the inside. if you even understand what i mean, kim and annie. sigh... why must things be so diff.. will i see you guys on friday?(:
please come.
anisiahloveschocolatessodoyoudotcom. ta-daa.
Wednesday, January 10, 2007, 12:27 AM
heyy.
this PAGE took forever to load. GRR.
okay.
TODAY, was the stupid induction ceremony rehearsal and because of tt, i didn't get to catch the bhps track training. they weren't there when i arrived SO i walked home and i passed adilah's house SO i decided to drop by. tt was abt 5.15 PM and i waited for her for 30 minutes. rofl. erms. her mum was really nice, AS USUAL. she served me a glass of water and traditional malay donuts made of tapioca which was really really YUMMY! when adilah came, SHE LOOKS SO CUTE IN HER WHITLEY UNIFORM. she said i look better in cedar uniform. we chatted for quite awhile.
i went home after tt, d-oh. and to my SURPRISE, my bro and sis wanted to go to velocity so i tagged along. I SWEAR, VELOCITY IS NO POINT GOING TO. it's so boring. i EVEN PREFER united square, la. even though they sell branded stuff and haveone or two LAME sales WHICH CONSIST OF NO BRANDED CLOTHES, it's super boring.if you DO NOT have money, it's no point going to. go there if you are super loaded with cash. rofl.
erms.
sch today was FUN. but tiring, as well. we had our C&T lessons which is craft and technology. we're doing sewing for the first 5 weeks. WITH A SEWING MACHINE! hee. it's super fun! and we have to do thist-shirt thingy. we'll be graded on it. i think C&T is so fun. AHH. hahaha. after sewing, we'll be doing COOKING. i can't wait. i read in the home econs bk tt we'll becooking acake. YAY. i wonder whether it's individually or not. hmm, hmm. there was no jogging because of the bad weather. we WORE OUR PE TSHIRTS for no reason. it was so wtf when we heard the announcement. it wasn't the greatest day, i have to admit. it may have been fun but it definitely wasn't the best day i've had in cedar. THERE'S BEEN BETTER. :D
here's a song me and my friends made up to the tune of smack that. :D
TAMMIE, ALL ON THE FLOOR.
TAMMIE, WIPE UP SOME MORE.
TAMMIE, DIRTY HANDS SOME MORE.
TAMMIE, OHOHOHOH.
ALEX, MOUNT CURLY HAIR.
ALEX, MUST STRAIGHTEN HAIR.
ALEX, NEVER PAY BUS FAIR.
ALEX, OHOHOHOH.
hee. we only did it for alex and tammie cause it sounded funnier. hee. :D
NO OFFENSE, GIRL!
jinrong so bad T.T call me draw body so she can design clothes on top. make me feel gross sia. HAHA.
aiya. i ahven't done my hmwork yet. i better go and do it in my bro's room. i haven't even finished my maths 10.3 yet, la. sigh. stubborn, stubborn.
IT'S ALL MY BROTHERS FAULT! go velocity for no reason. sigh. lame, lame.
must wake up early to go to school!
heh.
hearts,
anisiah.
anisiahlovesyou.com
Monday, January 08, 2007, 1:17 AM
hello.
i realise smth. WHEN I SAID HAPPY NEW YEAR AND SAID MY RESOLUTIONS, I NEVER CHANGED THE SKIN OF MY BLOG. well. i'm changing it now. all for 2007 and what's to come.
HEARTS.
ANISIAH.
"i never believed we could fly until the day you came and swept me off my feet."
Sunday, January 07, 2007, 12:25 AM
heyy,
saturday was uber boring. i was lazing around in the morning. i watched ocean's twelve on my dvd player and then went to toa payoh to buy my files and go to the library. i ate McD's using my ez-link card. at the start of the week, it was $20. now i think it's only abt $10, maybe? maybe even less... i don't know la. hope tmr, my daddee tops it up. heh.
erms.
HMWORK is so difficult to do, la. to make matters worse, i'm on the com and it's gonna' take me forever to do, especially since i need to hand it up tmr! sigh.. i'm so stubborn and i keep putting things aside till' the last day.
WHEN ARE WE GOING BACK TO BHPS THIS WEEK? i'm soooo eager to see our teachers again. hurry hurry, make a date! don't look at me when it comes to planning, I SUCK. haha. but must check with me first also because i might have my try-outs tmr. heh. ohh, when we go back, you guys want to meet up or go straight there? i think it's better if we meet up. maybe at 7 eleven or smth. TAG ME FOR REPLY!
anways. :D
I AM THE GENERAL SCIENCE REP. AND SO IS WIL. coincidence. heh. BIG COINCIDENCE.
ohh. NOW I HAVE A CLASSMATE TO ACCOMPANY ME FOR THELONG WALK TO AND FROM SCHOOL, YAY! haha. jing rong is going to take public transport starting from tmr so i think we're going to meet up at the potong pasir mrt stn bus stop every morning from now on. hope we won't be late! i was late on friday and the teacher gave me a warning but i had valid reason. mrs franklin was understanding abt it.
sigh.
i guess i better start on my homework, then. will blog soon.
byeee~!
hearts.
anisiah
Friday, January 05, 2007, 8:53 PM
erm. `ello~!
i want to standardize my colour to this colour. i like it alot alot.
anw.
TODAY WAS ANOTHER EXTREMELY FUNN DAY.
FIRSTLY.
everybody was extra hyper today! even during the CCA auditions so it was uber fun, la! we were singing and making alot of noise la. we were all damn talkative today. heh. I'M THE GENERAL SCIENCE REPRESENTATIVE! so i get to handle all the chemicals, etc. WHICH I LOVE. i sound like a geek here but i LOVE SCIENCE.
anw.
during the auditions, i was damn enthu la! i tried my best at everything and i think me and 2 or 3 other girls got our name ticked for long jump! hee. SEE, I CAN DO LONG JUMP! and i guess i've finally learnt how to squat when i land. not BUM first. LOL. i was first place for the 600m run, WHOOT! and i jumped really high for the vertical jumped. got "1++" points for throwing the softball thingy and i SUCK at throwing the shot put ball. (x altogether, I WAS DAMN EXHAUSTED but damn happy. TRALALA. after tt, we went home (d-oh). ariel's mum gave me a lift to potong pasir mrt station bus stop so i didn't have to walk the ten minute walk which i hate. erms. me and ariel sat at the waiting benches for abt half an hour but we got thirsty so we went to get iced milo from the vending machines. the vending machine was somewhat like the one's we have at bhps. it's the type where the cup comes out and then they pour the milo/tea/coffee in. the cup was SO CUTE...! cheap also lah, 50 cents. same like bhps. we talked alot alot and finally, HER MUM CAME. and sent me to the bus stop. whee~! (x i walked all the way to 7-eleven and bought CHOCOLATE! kitkat chunky. (x and coke light. at least i was less tired after drinking and eating la.
AND THEN.
i end up at home. jubilant. relaxed. not as tired. AND I GOT TO USE THE COM FIRST! YAY. haha. AND NOW, SINCE I'M BORED, i'm going to do other stuff online.
1-Cee rocks!!! erms.
SWEET. (:
michelle.
ariel.
syuhaidah.
alexandra.
jing rong.
valerie.
atiqah.
nicole.
charlene.
chen yun.
rachel. (1P)
debra.
lena.
AND LOTS MORE. IN FACT, PRACTICALLY THE WHOLE CLASS. i'm lazy to exaggerate. that's all.
anw.
hearts.
anisiah
Thursday, January 04, 2007, 5:33 PM
`ello-!
erms.
today was fun. A-W-E-S-O-M-E. we had our lessons and the teachers were quite fun. the teachers turned out not to be tt bad, THANK GOD. ohh, and Mrs. Franklin's okay, THANK GOODNESS. i have to take higher MT though cause only me and atiqah aren't taking higher MT so the teach told us it's better to. the malay teach is nice and she's easy to understand. yay! heh. i have toask my father abt it, too. sigh.. so tired. yay-ness. i think one-cee rocks. everybody in it is extremely funny and nice...! hearts.
hee.
right now i'm doing quizzes on www.quizilla.com. go there and try the quizzes, FUNN. some of them are really lame but go and have a laugh, man.
oops. sorry it's not a detailed post. (: i gtg. will blog soon. mwah's.
she hearts you.
anisiah
Wednesday, January 03, 2007, 7:33 PM
hey,
i feel like changing my blog skin again. right now, i'm supposed to be doing hmwork but i got lazy half way. it's tough, kay! geography's tough but fun. i guess.
erm.
i look okay in my uniform. i think. peeranut looks fine in his. so does cass. and ponthep. but norman looks like crap and sab lau looks okay. i haven't seen the rest in uni yet though.
SCHOOLS BEEN FUN. i thiink. the lessons aren't too boring but i came home exhausted. hmm. wonder when we are going to shandeep's house...
ohh, Lit is pretty cool. yep.
AND NOWADAYS I HAVE NTH TO BLOG ABT. my life's been THAT boring. even talking to ppl on MSN bores me nowadays. now blogging has started to be less and less fun and there's nth to do on friendster anymore except add testimonials and change our profiles. all this stuff's getting old. it's time they invented smth new!! maybe i shld go and join flixster or smth. or i could blog myself to death. SIGH. i wish ppl would tag me more. or request i blog abt smth cause as you can see, I HAVE NTH TO BLOG ABT so i'm typing random shit.
ahh. i'm not blogging anymore for today! HMPH!
hearts.
anisiahLabels: SIGH.
, 12:12 AM
hello~!
finally, guess who's back? *waits for 30 seconds* if you guessed wilson, then YAY! you guessed right. I MISSED HIM A WHOLE LOT. especially since i wasn't really able to talk to him online and we barely communicated. i'm EXTRA HAPPY he's back. i practically jumped for joy when his display name popped up on MSN. (: he didn't get me bubble gums. T.T but it doesn't matter since i'm craving CHOCOLATE MORE! (x
as you all know, SCH STARTS ON 3RD JANUARY. which is today since it's only 12:12AM. i'm partially excited and the other half of me is dreading it so much. i can't wait to hang out with the friends i've alr made there but i dread the idea of walking to sch in the dark from potong pasir MRT. it's really scary cause the place is very deserted and nobody from 1C walks my way towards the MRT cause they definitely don't take the 142 bus. so i'm always going to go home alone unless one of them takes the MRT home. sob. and it's such a long walk...! if my books were light it wouldn't be a problem but d-oh, my books are definitely HEAVY. i will collapse even before i reach my bus stop... lol. tt would be bad. VERY BAD. i shld try to lighten the load.
anyways (:
I WATCHED FLAGS OF OUR FATHERS! I LOVE THE MOVIE. i really do. it's the best movie, EVER. it has meaning. it has everything a movie needs. it's a bit gruesome but heck care. it's based on a true story. bimbotic ppl would say it sucks. but i love it. buy it and watch it cause it's NC16. XP
alright. i have nth to say. nth. sigh...
bizarre love triangle BY new order.
Every time i think of you
I feel shot right through with a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine but it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind
There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
While every day my confusion grows
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say
I feel fine and I feel good
I'm feeling like I never should
Whenever I get this way, I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say
alrighty! time to go! (x will blog soon!
hearts.
anisiah
Tuesday, January 02, 2007, 12:40 AM
hello~!
i have fully recovered. lol. i'm no longer in the i-don't wanna'-talk-to-ppl mode. you can see why. OHH, PPL WHO TAGGED MY CBOX DON'T MAKE IT ANY BETTER EITHER. especially pudid who just only visited my blog for the first time. i don't recall him visiting my blog ever. MEAN-IE. FYI, pudid, when was the last time you talked to me properly? ):
right.
the last three entries i've posted are awkward. very awkward. i can't believe i've shared tt much personal info to the whole world. TOO MUCH PERSONAL INFO. i'm not going to delete them, i see no point. practically everybody's read them. and i'm fine by the fact tt nobody sided me cause i was being mean in the first place. can't believe i acted on impulse. i don't usually do tt.
well.
my new year may seem all jolly now but guess what? it's still the same. AND THE FRIGGIN' REASON is because my mother, who promised tt she won't go back to HK for awhile is going back on the SIXTH. 6/1/2007. T.T she's supposed to stay longer. she doesn't care, sia. our sch's finally starting and she wants to go back. HMPH. i doubt she's coming back soon. she's leaving us here again in the care of our father who really doesn't do much. ANOTHER SOB STORY. i shld just take it as it comes like i usually do but i guess life with my parents is getting kinda' tough. especially since me annd my bro are in secondary alr and my sis is in pre-uni. they're being unfair to us. VERY UNFAIR.
but anways (:
it's 2nd jan alr. 40 minutes past 2nd jan. AND I CAN'T SLEEP. i shldn't have taken a nap earlier today. i shld have gone to vivo city or smth. i shld have wrapped my books! speaking of wrapping books, i can't wrap for nuts. my sis tried to teach me but i ended up taking half an hour to wrap one of my maths textbooks. pathetic. my mum used to help mewrap my books. i feel like a kid. a really dumb and pathetic one. ohh, an annoying one at tt. i'm 12 going on 13 and i can't even wrap my own textbooks! gee.
ohh, the arsenal match is at 3.30am today and i hope i can stay up till' then. i highly doubtmy father will even let me watch it. i wonder when he's coming home... hmmm. arsenal must win. we are alr out of the champions league and we cannot afford to lose anymore of our matches. we need to be at least top four. liverpool's alr 3rd/4th on the table, i can't really remember. *scratches head*
ohh. btw. IS ANYBODY GOING BACK TO BHPS ON 3RD JANUARY FOR A LITTLE GATHERING? anybody want? if not many ppl, forget it. whitley-an's have orientation camp, i think. T.T am i going to be alone or is anybody going. i'd hate to be alone. feels so awkward.
anw (x
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hearts.
anisiah
Monday, January 01, 2007, 4:12 AM
sob.
yes. i'm officially crushed to pieces. i hope noone finds me in my state. i thought everything was going to be fine once i apologized and get things sorted out between our totally different characters. i went to kim's blog twice. the first time, i didn't notice anything so i just tagged her all those stuff i wanted to say. the second time, i go back to check if she's left me anything. and i find a post. less horrid than mine but it crushed me to bits anw. trust me, my eyes are red and puffy.
here's the post.
"heyy today was a not bad day,, i guess cos its new year's eve!! and both of my 2 best friends have turned their back on me wow... yeah and I'm not jk they really have and the friends are anisiah and annie,yeah it was all because i had a fight with anisiah bout somethings regarding my family so i said i hate my life and wanna leave then all of a sudden when she asked me to chill and i said i was chilling,she got angry at me and we started shouting at eachother. then she wrote evrything on her blog i mean everythin,why does she have to do that?? i mean just to show her bf..that totally shows she really LOVES her bf..this is what she worte that hurt my feelings so much"firstly, she started complaining and bitching abt her parents not giving her a life. for fucks sake, GET A LIFE.for gods sake. don't come crying to me. i'm not your pillow to scream into. then, she goes offline for awhile and during tt time, i have happy happy conversations until she comes back online five minutes later. yeah that's what she wrote. if you dont go check out her blog,,and gueuss how i felt when she said this..yeah crushed and horrid.i mean best friends dont don't do that to eachother or are we best friends.anyway looks like she is happy without me.i mean she has a boyfriend already to keep her well.And she will just throw me away if i was her doll.and annie did not back me up as usual and i got angry so yeah. i'm not trying to complain im just saying that anisiah seriously does not like me anymore so that's information.
But she still did not have to be so mean by telling me to GET A LIFE, it;s like saying "heyy YOU don't have a life at all so go GET ONE." well FYI just because i don't have a life you did not have to say it on yr blog..where evryone can see.its like you want evrybody to know that im such a bitch..
anyway if yr reading this anisiah i wanted to say thank you for calling me a bitch and that i will not come crying to you anymore.loves lots =)"
and i thought it was all gonna' turn out fine. guess not. no matter how much i may apologize, she's not going to speak to me again. curse me. shld have called her immediately but i went on being selfish. god, i think i'm going to turn down ricky's invitation to vivo city tmr. i'm not going. i'm going to call kimberly tmr and tell her. if she doesn't want to talk to me, it's over. all my fault, all my fault. well, i guess she IS happier without me, ja?
i was only acting on impulse... sigh... come to think tt just a week ago, we were fine. normal best friends. am i screwed or what...? PLEASE LET HER READ MY EMAIL. though i can't guarantee it'll help anything. geez. what did i get myself into...
not so happy.
anisiah
PS: this would turn out to be a bestseller if it were a book. unfortunately, it's not. and i'm not liking it one bit.
, 3:15 AM
heyy,
this entry is for kimberly. i feel like a despo here but i don't care anymore. i want kim to know tt i'm sorry. especially if you didn't read my email. i hope you read it though. it would be a waste if you didn't. and i hate to repeat what i've alr done.
kimberly, i am very sorry. i've been selfish, self-centered, horrid, immature and unkind towards you. i guess i always have. i really shldn't have. everything during the past few days has made me think. including those two "anonymous" ppl i have tagging me. they're right, i shld get a life myself. wtf am i doing with my life anyway? i lock myself up at home afraid tt someone might judge me. so many alr have. including ppl i don't even know. i carry myself like some proud person but truthfully, i'm not very happy with what i've done with my reputation at all. i tarnished it. ever since i transfered to bhps from yckps, i've been in a horrible state. maybe my parent's divorce got to my head or maybe it's just how i am. i've noticed it and i'm guilty of not changing even though i promise myself to. i'm usually known as the i-play-soccer type. some ppl call me a slut but i AM NOT. I HATE THE IDEA OF BEING SLEAZY AND FOOLING AROUND WITH A GUY. there's only one guy tt i've actually fallen for and i actually do care abt. and other than tt, my next priority is kimberly and then comes all the other friends i'm close to like annie, yan yi, diana and etc. although my family comes first, i take it tt everybody feels tt way abt their families too.
you know what? SORRY to all those ppl i've actually let down before. sorry to almost evryone i know. from now on, i'm going to speak my mind, be mature and change for the better. kim, you gave me an eye-opener. i really don't care who reads this. it's possibly meant for everybody out there. i guess i speak from experience. i'm a secondary sch kid and not an adult who knows everything. everybody makes mistakes. running away from your mistakes is equally as bad, i guess. kim, forgive me, ja? *gives a pathetic smile*
i'm out for now. i'm exhausted and i want time on my own, ja? please do ring me up. i'm bored at home and i want to buy myself a nice new pencilbox and stationary. ohh, and i am in dying need of attention. can i go over to somebody's house, please? (i'm acting as though nth has happened, sheesh. -_-") btw, this is the saddest entry i've had in ages.
hearts.
anisiah