HELLO.
Do you listen to yourself
Never live for someone else
Do you like the way you feel
Nothing hurts when no one's real
She wants to shake this scene
Yeah she wants to shake with me
She's not looking for the holes in all the lies
I won't let you fall until you let it go
HERO.
of the muddle-headed one.
{anisiah
shazlin.
definition; (: boisterous, athletic, fun and teenspirit-ed.
t-rex gaygay
twelve-
teen
thir
teen soon.
100794
POET.
BALESTIER ; CEDAR.
ONE/CEE 07'
greenhouse effect; GARDENIA!
track&field team
soccer.
CHOCOLATE(:
silver&black&white&red&purple&green
guitarists
are sexiest.
taken. i
loveyou.
i'm a tragic affair.
Daylight burns your sleepy eyes
It's hard to see you dreaming
You hide inside yourself
I wondered what you're thinking
And everything you're chasing
It seems to leave you empty.
ART.
Monday, January 01, 2007, 4:12 AM
sob.yes. i'm officially crushed to pieces. i hope noone finds me in my state. i thought everything was going to be fine once i apologized and get things sorted out between our totally different characters. i went to kim's blog twice. the first time, i didn't notice anything so i just tagged her all those stuff i wanted to say. the second time, i go back to check if she's left me anything. and i find a post. less horrid than mine but it crushed me to bits anw. trust me, my eyes are red and puffy.here's the post."heyy today was a not bad day,, i guess cos its new year's eve!! and both of my 2 best friends have turned their back on me wow... yeah and I'm not jk they really have and the friends are anisiah and annie,yeah it was all because i had a fight with anisiah bout somethings regarding my family so i said i hate my life and wanna leave then all of a sudden when she asked me to chill and i said i was chilling,she got angry at me and we started shouting at eachother. then she wrote evrything on her blog i mean everythin,why does she have to do that?? i mean just to show her bf..that totally shows she really LOVES her bf..this is what she worte that hurt my feelings so much"firstly, she started complaining and bitching abt her parents not giving her a life. for fucks sake, GET A LIFE.for gods sake. don't come crying to me. i'm not your pillow to scream into. then, she goes offline for awhile and during tt time, i have happy happy conversations until she comes back online five minutes later. yeah that's what she wrote. if you dont go check out her blog,,and gueuss how i felt when she said this..yeah crushed and horrid.i mean best friends dont don't do that to eachother or are we best friends.anyway looks like she is happy without me.i mean she has a boyfriend already to keep her well.And she will just throw me away if i was her doll.and annie did not back me up as usual and i got angry so yeah. i'm not trying to complain im just saying that anisiah seriously does not like me anymore so that's information.But she still did not have to be so mean by telling me to GET A LIFE, it;s like saying "heyy YOU don't have a life at all so go GET ONE." well FYI just because i don't have a life you did not have to say it on yr blog..where evryone can see.its like you want evrybody to know that im such a bitch..anyway if yr reading this anisiah i wanted to say thank you for calling me a bitch and that i will not come crying to you anymore.loves lots =)"and i thought it was all gonna' turn out fine. guess not. no matter how much i may apologize, she's not going to speak to me again. curse me. shld have called her immediately but i went on being selfish. god, i think i'm going to turn down ricky's invitation to vivo city tmr. i'm not going. i'm going to call kimberly tmr and tell her. if she doesn't want to talk to me, it's over. all my fault, all my fault. well, i guess she IS happier without me, ja? i was only acting on impulse... sigh... come to think tt just a week ago, we were fine. normal best friends. am i screwed or what...? PLEASE LET HER READ MY EMAIL. though i can't guarantee it'll help anything. geez. what did i get myself into...not so happy.anisiahPS: this would turn out to be a bestseller if it were a book. unfortunately, it's not. and i'm not liking it one bit.
