HELLO.
Do you listen to yourself
Never live for someone else
Do you like the way you feel
Nothing hurts when no one's real
She wants to shake this scene
Yeah she wants to shake with me
She's not looking for the holes in all the lies
I won't let you fall until you let it go
HERO.
of the muddle-headed one.
{anisiah
shazlin.
definition; (: boisterous, athletic, fun and teenspirit-ed.
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twelve-
teen
thir
teen soon.
100794
POET.
BALESTIER ; CEDAR.
ONE/CEE 07'
greenhouse effect; GARDENIA!
track&field team
soccer.
CHOCOLATE(:
silver&black&white&red&purple&green
guitarists
are sexiest.
taken. i
loveyou.
i'm a tragic affair.
Daylight burns your sleepy eyes
It's hard to see you dreaming
You hide inside yourself
I wondered what you're thinking
And everything you're chasing
It seems to leave you empty.
ART.
Wednesday, March 21, 2007, 7:16 PM
EDITED;
FUCK.
life is so screwed up at the moment.
thank god for friends.
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, JUMP! CLEARED HEIGHT!
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, JUMP! failed.
it's history. i'm a born loser.
I'M NEVER GOING TO THE NATIONAL JUNIOR MEET IF I KEEP THIS UP! WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME!? WHY CAN'T I JUMP?! WHY AM I STILL TRAUMATISED?! WHY CAN'T I FACE MY FEARS AND IMAGINE THE POLE IS NOT THERE?! WHY CAN'T I JUST JUMP NORMALLY?! why. why must i be so sad. why did i cry when i couldn't do it? there is an answer but i'm too afraid to say it. why am i so angry at myself for not being able to jump? most importantly; WHAT THE HELL DID I DO TO MAKE MY LEG THIS PAINFUL?! it hurts so bad and it's my POWER LEG. i want it to heal up but i'm not wonderwoman. i'm a normal girl with ambitions and broken ones, too. i've always been competitive and now that i'm not doing so well, i'm shattered. i've no longer got anything to take pride in. wendelynn says i can jump, but can i really? i guess i've got to clear my thoughts and restart again. forget i ever did anything wrongly. try my best. NO, DO MY BEST. i'll strive, and in the end, i'll TRIUMPH. but i need help. this isn't just a phase, i need to be convinced. i know it, but i can't help myself...oh my, all this over high jump. it's my dream; so why not?
IT'S TIME FOR THE TAKE OVER BECAUSE THE BREAK'S OVER!
MOTIVATION, heh.
byes.
`anisiah-
