HELLO.
Do you listen to yourself
Never live for someone else
Do you like the way you feel
Nothing hurts when no one's real
She wants to shake this scene
Yeah she wants to shake with me
She's not looking for the holes in all the lies
I won't let you fall until you let it go
ART.
Friday, March 16, 2007, 6:30 PM
EDITED;
hello.
you bleed just to know you're alive.there are depressing stories. i listen to my friends confide, and i feel a pang of guilt. i'm much better off than most of them, emotionally. some slit their wrists, and when i see the scars or self-inflicted bruises, i feel like curling up and dying inside because they are really important to me. all of them are. my friends are what keeps me going, what i look forward to everyday and yet occasionally i get a few who direct all their anger at me. and i want to tell them to stop, to not be like that but i can't because i don't influence them.
oh, god. my weakness is seeing others wilt away...that's pretty darn deep.ystd, i went to meet the guys at east coast, even though no other girl was going. I WENT THERE FOR NO REASON. i reached the place, tried finding all of them for half an hour and when i met them, they left approximately five minutes after. they left for escape theme park and i didn't want to go so i sent them off and then sat down on the big rocks on the beach.
i really didn't want to leave. the waves that crashed onto the rocks were soothing and i enjoyed looking at Bintam and Batam in the distance, wondering what it's like to be living there. the ships were fascinating, i guess. the smoke coming from them looked like black swirls of ink in a glass of water; the sky. the sand was soft, my feet sank into it. i guess the beach is my favourite place to be. i love it.
but my day wasn't all happy, happy. the weather looked bad, although it really wasn't. my sister smsed me to go home because she said that it was really scary to be at the beach when it was raining and to witness the violent waves crashing onto the shore. i was sceptical, of course, but i went home, anyway.
i reached home, all ready to take a nice
warm COLD shower and dive into the sanctuary of my bed. heehee. x) but my sister insisted i go with her and my brother to orchard. i was all hyped up abt it at first but when we got off the bus, i felt really dizzy and sleepy. it's probably because i haven't been eating much. i notice it but i'm never really hungry. i wanted to watch The Pursuit of Happiness with my brother but i was late to buy the ticket, grrr.
went home, collapsed and woke up late for TRACK&FIELD the next morning.
my breakfast was lame; MILK. lmao. i walked to toa payoh stadium and i was SO SO HAPPY! balestier hill primary was training there after all!!! i saw my juniors, mr ravi and coach while training, heehee. x)
during training, i don't know what i did but my foot really hurts. maybe i cracked another bone like i cracked my ribs? who knows. since we haven't done any other heights during high jump and the highest we have done is 125, i guess my PB so far is 125. heh. wait until we try higher heights. ((:
after training, us jumpers went to go eat at mcd, AGAIN. but after discovering that it was too full, we walked to mos burger instead(still too FULL). the seniors ate at mos burger but me, tiffany, hafizah, mardiyanah and yun yun carried walking on till we bumped into wendelynn and jacinda. we watched the CAMPUS SUPERSTAR male auditions for awhile, went to eat kfc and then came back to watch it again. tiffany knew this guy there, named bernard (i have NO IDEA how you spell it.), so i helped her scream his name. he actually got in! heehee x) tiffany wants to try for CAMPUS SUPERSTAR but she's a nervous wreck. i'll support her if she decides to go tmr, with jacinda. lol.
tmr, we're going to escape theme park to celebrate tammie's bday, which was long ago but we didn't have time to celebrate.
oh, shoot me. i'm hyper.sigh, quite fun la. i'm glad the last few days of my holiday is going to
ROCK!
i'm replying to the people who have tagged me through here because there's something wrong with my tagboard;
toCHERNERN; nahh, it's okay. i'm definitely not angry with anyone.
toWANTINGG; IT'S GOING TO BE SO FUN! hahas. i can't wait for tmr. :D
toROHANIZA; i will. i'll smile. heh, you're concerned! ((:
toJINGWEN; decide for yourself, wen.
toVARSHA; I KNOW WHY! you bring BOO along, don't you?! heehee. x)
toARIEL; i'm as hyped up as you. it's going to be UBER. 'wet&wild' is NOT called 'the log thing', dumdum! hahas; "DUMDUM WANT GUMGUM!" lmao.
toARSHAD; ohmygod, you are my weakness. please don't be that way. i'll scream with you & you'll be safe here. i'm just the godsis but one small thing makes a big difference. you know what i mean, right? if you need anything, my arms are wide open.
okays, that's it for today. really long entry, so enjoy. :D
"everything's made to be broken."
BYES.
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anisiahlovesyou.
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